|I’ve mentioned before that I struggle on and off with depression. It’s not overly debilitating. Rather, I know that I am feeling ‘blue’ and it will require effort to navigate the day.
My preferred response is to become glum about everything in life and ‘catastrophise’ every situation, present, past and future! If I yield to its compelling pressures, then I will become like a bear with a sore head and not nice to know.
If I choose to manage myself, then it is taking responsibility for my words and actions, a personal management that requires a lot of effort to implement consistently. The last place I want to make tracks for is the place of prayer; the last person I feel I want to talk to is God!
The psalmist talks of the ‘day of distress’ (ISV), a day we can all identify with. While we know in theory God is our best hope, it feels as though there must be many other avenues we might explore before we finally make our way into the Lord’s presence.
I’ve lost count of the number of times I’ve looked to a myriad of alternatives to cheer my mood, rather than coming clean with God.
It is a very real discipline to bring your life under the authority of God. His response to your prayer may be delayed, yet there is purpose in this.
It may be a purpose we cannot understand, yet through it God is manifesting his grace in a variety of ways through us. As a servant of God, you are to reflect the very life of God in this world. Your circumstances entrusted to God’s provision provide the context for God’s witness to his mercy and grace. This lies at the heart of all mission.
God’s whole commitment is directed towards crafting godly character in each one of his disciples. Like the potter patiently casting and recasting his pot upon the wheel, so God will patiently work with each of us to encourage godliness; something he prizes above all else.
(Dr Micha Jazz)
With many peaceful blessings